Saturday, September 16, 2006
alright..think its been a really long time since i've blogged..and people is complaining..(u know who u are, no need me to say la..but if u wan to own up i also don't mind.haha.) okie..well..for those who often drop in to my blog, i have to say sorry..because to me, blogging is not a daily journal, its a place where i share my feelings with those who care..but..its seems that my feeling is a little draggy this days, that's why i cant post any new stuff up..but well..here goes:
had what i considered a really big misunderstanding and quarrel with my one and only twin..cause of the quarrel??i don't really know..because we thought we both understand each other?and that whatever we did is for the sake of each other?i know that i've hurt u badly, and im hurt too..by my own words and actions..like u said,out of a sudden we are like strangers..maybe time will heal everything, and maybe time will just make it worse..but like what we both promised each other, we will always be friends,we will always be there for each other 24/7 right? yup..i guess so..
things happen before we can even anticipate,take prevention or be mentally prepared. but maybe this is what life is all about.always giving us surprises and challenges, always putting us in difficult situation.making life difficult for us..but maybe its because of all this, that we learnt from our experience and mistakes, learn to be stronger and learn to face our problem.
i always use to say that i have never regretted doing anything for this past 18 years, but for once, i am..i regret..i do not regret saying those hurtful stuff to u, but i regret saying it in a hurtful manner..
maybe using busy and lazy to not blog is an excuse, maybe the real excuse is, i know that once i'm posting a new post, i would surely put it all those stuff that happened to us, and i would let u know how i really feel..i'm always saying that u never face up to ur problem, always avoiding it..maybe im no different to u..
**to my twin, sorry for my stupid and immature attitude recently, it might still continue, i don't know.but one thing is, i've been thinking alot recently, thinking about how should i treat u in the future..continue the same way or treating u in a different way (but of course for the better)..i have not made a decision yet and i hope that for now, at least, u can think for me..give me some time..u know im not very good at this.
**to raymond, somehow i have to thanked u for chatting with me online today, because of u, i've finally blogged.haha.well, being busy now for me is working hard for not only me, but my family's future.even though i really feel that im starting to lose contact with lots of my friends..but, if that really happens, guess there's nothing much i can do too..well..anyway, nice seeing u and kl the other day..but DON'T come down to my work place anymore. :)
had what i considered a really big misunderstanding and quarrel with my one and only twin..cause of the quarrel??i don't really know..because we thought we both understand each other?and that whatever we did is for the sake of each other?i know that i've hurt u badly, and im hurt too..by my own words and actions..like u said,out of a sudden we are like strangers..maybe time will heal everything, and maybe time will just make it worse..but like what we both promised each other, we will always be friends,we will always be there for each other 24/7 right? yup..i guess so..
things happen before we can even anticipate,take prevention or be mentally prepared. but maybe this is what life is all about.always giving us surprises and challenges, always putting us in difficult situation.making life difficult for us..but maybe its because of all this, that we learnt from our experience and mistakes, learn to be stronger and learn to face our problem.
i always use to say that i have never regretted doing anything for this past 18 years, but for once, i am..i regret..i do not regret saying those hurtful stuff to u, but i regret saying it in a hurtful manner..
maybe using busy and lazy to not blog is an excuse, maybe the real excuse is, i know that once i'm posting a new post, i would surely put it all those stuff that happened to us, and i would let u know how i really feel..i'm always saying that u never face up to ur problem, always avoiding it..maybe im no different to u..
**to my twin, sorry for my stupid and immature attitude recently, it might still continue, i don't know.but one thing is, i've been thinking alot recently, thinking about how should i treat u in the future..continue the same way or treating u in a different way (but of course for the better)..i have not made a decision yet and i hope that for now, at least, u can think for me..give me some time..u know im not very good at this.
**to raymond, somehow i have to thanked u for chatting with me online today, because of u, i've finally blogged.haha.well, being busy now for me is working hard for not only me, but my family's future.even though i really feel that im starting to lose contact with lots of my friends..but, if that really happens, guess there's nothing much i can do too..well..anyway, nice seeing u and kl the other day..but DON'T come down to my work place anymore. :)
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