Sunday, April 02, 2006
i hate it...i hate people who are so unreasonable and such fault blamer..ARGHH!! if u think u are so great, den why bother to even talk to me, why even bother to quarrel with me for nothing. or does making me angry makes u feel so good and great bout it. cant you even solve the problem by urself?told u its an accident, i didnt mean it to happen.and do you have to blame and scold me like i've committed a serious crime?like i've killed somebody.i hate it..i really really hate it. especially when u people keep siding her.no matter what she does, u people only give compliments or whatever..no matter what she does, right or wrong.just bcause she's young doesn't mean she can do whatever she wants and it also doesnt means that u can side her like nothing is going on. and when i do good things,work my butt off without complaints, u dont say a word.not even a word of encourage or compliment. a simple 'good' means more than anything to me. at least i knows that my hard work have paid off. but no, i dont get anything.is it my problem or what that u people have to treat me like this. i dont like it, i seriously dont. maybe i shouldnt have listen to you and step into what i'm doing at the moment.maybe i should have followed what i wanted in the first place.no matter how much hard work it takes me to fulfill my dreams,i will have no complains.
my dear twin..how i wish i could tell u everything.but i cant.cuz i know u have more than enough to handle at the moment.i dont want to add on to your problems.i really love them u know.i really do.i want to give them the best that i can give,i want them to live happily.but the way they're treating me,especially that person, i cant. sometimes i really have that sudden action of giving her one tight slap.i really feel like trashing her up.she makes me so angry that i cant control my own emotions.i hate her.she doesnt gives me the respect that i deserve,so why should i give it to her?i hate it..how i wish that one day we can both move out and stay together.and by that time,is what i really call the beginning of happiness and laughter.i miss u, twin.
my dear twin..how i wish i could tell u everything.but i cant.cuz i know u have more than enough to handle at the moment.i dont want to add on to your problems.i really love them u know.i really do.i want to give them the best that i can give,i want them to live happily.but the way they're treating me,especially that person, i cant. sometimes i really have that sudden action of giving her one tight slap.i really feel like trashing her up.she makes me so angry that i cant control my own emotions.i hate her.she doesnt gives me the respect that i deserve,so why should i give it to her?i hate it..how i wish that one day we can both move out and stay together.and by that time,is what i really call the beginning of happiness and laughter.i miss u, twin.
memories of life starts here, 9:34 PM.
