i'm gonna be maid-less for a month.have to start doing housework.for those who really knows me very very well..u should know that i have a maid at home.but now she went back to The Philipiness already.so..have to do housework.im not grumbling or wad..cuz..its actually a very good chance to let me learn how to do housework and most importantly..COOK!! im like the only person in this family that doesn't know how to cook.the only food i can cook..is instant noodles.i can't even fry an egg.can't even cook a porridge that looks edible.im really terrible.so i have to learn.even if the result is not good.but at least i've tried.right?right.

another thing..i think i'm having some allergic effects to my medicine.first..i start getting itchy all over my body..like there's something crawling around in my body..and now..my muscles around my neck, back,hands and even face are aching..or should i say..it feels like its hardening.its kind of worrying me though.think i should better go see the doctor tomorow fo reassurance.

and twin..amelia..the jokes are really funny..haha..my dad enjoyed it too..just nice..i needed a laugh.so stress with exam..arghh...

i miss my happy family..i want it back..fast..very fast..

its almost a week since i last updated. been really busy..well..watching "DA CHANG JING", if any of u know this show. and er..doing my assignments and er...i dunno..just felt that i've been pretty busy this whole week. good news: mom and dad are talking again. on good terms from what i see. bad news: i lost my voice, seen the doctor, and was told not to talk for 6 days. and now, i finally and really realise that its such a torture to not to be able to talk. and now i also realise that im actually quite a talkative person. haha. im going nuts..

went to watch movie with my dad today.had a really great time.haha.im so happy.we watched FIREWALL.well..the movie is okie..not up to my dad's usual movie standards,but he said it was okie.i really enjoyed hanging out with my dad..be it just sitting somewhere..eating and chatting.that is already very enjoyable.well..this reminds me of when im going thru my early teenage years..where..well..i guess many of us do experience this.we always felt that our parents are really very embarassing..and its best not to be seen by friends when im out witht them.well..that was my awkward teenage years.but now...i really treasure and appreciate the times i get to spend with my dad.

and twin..seriously speaking..i'm really angry with u today.for making me wait for 1 hour plus for u.i almost cry out already.make me stand and wait for u there like an idiot.but well..i shall consider if i want to forgive u anot.

hmmm..i really cant understand what my mother is thinking.for this past 2 days..she's out early and back late.i almost din get to see her at all.well..she quarrelled with my dad on thurs..which is pretty recent.and they quarrelled for...a very small minor thing.i really dun understand my mom..my dad even talked to her nicely..but she just don't appreaciate it and continues putting on a black face.i love them both.i dun wan to see them like that.it really upsets me.but there's also nothing i could do about it.hai..

hmmm...the smell of the wind this few days smells so different.it gives me encouragement and energy to continue working hard.gives me the confidence that i once had,but was fading away.it makes me feel that the world is full of hope.and that,whatever i used to dream is able to come true.as long as i work hard.it made me look at alot of things in a new perspective.it has given me a whole new reason to continue working hard and to fulfill my dreams.hmmm..i like the smell of this wind,this new wind. u may or may not understand what i'm talking,but..nvm..i understand can le..:)

Work today went really smooth..was surprised by someone..Yang su!!u ar gal..come without informing me..gave me a big shock leh..next time cannot like that le ar..had a nice chat with her,but well,stillhave to get back to work..so left her alone,but she's alright la..since she knows almost everyone there.

hai..i still have lots and lots of work to do.to complete.have to complete the container to put the easter egg by this thursday,plus assignment due this thursday too..and what else..o ya..to type and send my group members stuff which is important for the assignment which is due this thrusday.I HATE THIS THURSDAY!!!so many things due on that day.plus my lesson plans for this term,lesson plans for next term and homework for next term.omg...i'm really dying..there's onli 1 me..but so many things to do..how am i ever going to finish all this??someone..help!!!!!

my leg..my feet..don't belong to me anymore..its so..painful.went jogging early in the morning with my dad and sis at telok blangah hill.den,went to meet zan,terrence,xuian ming, kunloong,raymond and chun han.it all started well,until something happen.well,not a very nice experience,so shall not mention.but one thing i have to say though is,if u ever let ur friends wait for u for very long,u should at least know how to say "sorry".its not a difficult word to say.besides that,give ur friend an explanation.whether he accepts it or not,but at least he knows why u made he wait for such a long time.and if ur friend ever walks out on u,and its because u are the one who made him angry,chase after him.girl or boy,that person is ur friend.don't assume things are gonna be fine..because u never know that u've actually hurt your friend's feelings.and if u really treasure the friendship,make an effort,no matter how angry your friend is.

hai,well..done with that.accompained zan to buy bag.we went..cineleisure,taka,wisma,bugis,icon,far east to help zan look for her perfect bag.a bag which when she looks at it,she knows at that instant that its hers.so we walked for so long............that now i cant feel and control both my legs.
*my flu and fever is still living in my body.well,please..get away.*
im getting crazy..!!!!

had fever, sore throat and flu today.feel so lousy for the whole day,and that's not it.i was humiliated by a p4 boy,when he scold me "stupid teacher". i was so angry tha i nearly cried.how come there is such person,at such a young such have this type of sickening attitude.it really disgust me. was calling my twin for the whole day.trying to reach her and ask if she can go with me to tioman island for holiday during labour day.but well,its seems that her dad is in a bad mood,so all the answers she get from her dad is a no.but she will continue to try her best to persuade her dad for this...2 days??right twin?i really hope that u can go.really really really hope.cuz i know we are going to have loads and loads of fun.right?hahaha..after work,went to meet *somebody* to return stuff.den met zan,terrence and xuian ming at tiong.for..the sake of meeting?well,did a little catching up,laughed and record my specialised "wow..so ma..ny money"haha..the way i said it was funny.i think.cuz they even record it down.well,that's for now.my throat is aching.damm.well,end here.ZZzzzzz......

i'm so sick and tired of waking up early and go to work..how i wish i can have a long break.from everything.school and work.its so tiring.i miss my seconday school days.no worries.no extra duties and responsibilities.my only job is to go to school and attend lessons.do my homework and study for exams.no worries about money,sickening collegues,everyday lesson plans,preparing of teaching materials for both work and school.cracking my brain everyday.HAI!!!!!IM SO TIRED!!my dear twin.i also feel like quiting my job.but i cant bear to leave my kids.they are so adorable,though really mischevious at times that i really feel like spanking their butt.oops,cant say that,im a highly trained teacher.cant do that kind of stuff.
and did i ever mention that i really really DON"T LIKE one of the teachers working with me?omg.yes,she once taught me when i was still a little kid.but please,that DOESN"T mean that u can take advantage of me and use me.im not an idiot okie.though im not smart,but at least im not that stupid to let u use and take advantage of.this type of people is really sickening.what u want u just go and talk to the boss la.though im her daughter,but still,im working there as a staff not as her daughter.i also have to do my job and btw,double of yours.i work full day while urs is just half day okie.im more tired than u okie!!!so please,u also take pay one.what?people hire u to go there and shake ur legs ar.cant stand.so what if u are old.as in really old woman.does that means u can work lesser than us?NO!!!if u really want to work less u might as well dont work.irritating.the thought of working with u everyday reallly disgust me.YUCKS!!!i hate u!! YES!!U!!!

i hate it...i hate people who are so unreasonable and such fault blamer..ARGHH!! if u think u are so great, den why bother to even talk to me, why even bother to quarrel with me for nothing. or does making me angry makes u feel so good and great bout it. cant you even solve the problem by urself?told u its an accident, i didnt mean it to happen.and do you have to blame and scold me like i've committed a serious crime?like i've killed somebody.i hate it..i really really hate it. especially when u people keep siding her.no matter what she does, u people only give compliments or whatever..no matter what she does, right or wrong.just bcause she's young doesn't mean she can do whatever she wants and it also doesnt means that u can side her like nothing is going on. and when i do good things,work my butt off without complaints, u dont say a word.not even a word of encourage or compliment. a simple 'good' means more than anything to me. at least i knows that my hard work have paid off. but no, i dont get anything.is it my problem or what that u people have to treat me like this. i dont like it, i seriously dont. maybe i shouldnt have listen to you and step into what i'm doing at the moment.maybe i should have followed what i wanted in the first place.no matter how much hard work it takes me to fulfill my dreams,i will have no complains.

my dear twin..how i wish i could tell u everything.but i cant.cuz i know u have more than enough to handle at the moment.i dont want to add on to your problems.i really love them u know.i really do.i want to give them the best that i can give,i want them to live happily.but the way they're treating me,especially that person, i cant. sometimes i really have that sudden action of giving her one tight slap.i really feel like trashing her up.she makes me so angry that i cant control my own emotions.i hate her.she doesnt gives me the respect that i deserve,so why should i give it to her?i hate it..how i wish that one day we can both move out and stay together.and by that time,is what i really call the beginning of happiness and laughter.i miss u, twin.

have been thinking alot..mainly about my future..am i going to be a preschool teacher for the rest of my life?am i really going to take over my parent's business?or should i go and do what i always wanted?its so nerve-cracking.. can't make a right decision.in the past i still know who to go to..but now its such a blank..and after seeing what happen to my grandmother,i suddenly do realize that in our whole life we only live once..and that one time have to be worthy,memorable and special.everyone can only go through 1 age once. once its over, its really over..u can only think back but cannot do it over again.

and my sister..hai..it really breaks my heart seeing her like that..she still doesn't understand that whatever we did is for her own good..and all she does now is to ignore,give attitude and get angry with us for nothing. i really do love her, but will she ever knows?even if she does hate me, maybe she already hates me..but she's still my one and only sisiter, and i love her.

my twin amelia, really gald for u that u finally gone u know..like a guy..and i also really do hope that that guy would learn to appreciate u. cuz u're the best person i've ever know. though u do have some bad habits that i really cannot tolerate, but u'll still perfect to me..cuz u're my twin and that makes me perfect too..hahahaha...well..happy one year knowing each other..last year this day. is the best day of my life..cuz i still to know u..!!!i love u..muackx..

...PROFILEEE

KELLY
twenty-one
27/07/1988
insensitive